Her word bothers me! :(

“Do you know that it hurts me for what have happened? I don't wanna dating anybody available?” :'(

 

 

I used to know how it feels to be just like that! :'(

least expected message on a sunny sunday

dan di minggu pagi yang tersenyum cerah ini aku menerima pesan singkat menyayat habis sisa harapanku, 

"aku belum siap bertemu denganmu, aku masih banyak masalah". 

Aku hanya bisa termenung menatap layar, sembari menepuk pundak hati kecilku, mendengara lamat lamat suaranya yang hampir kulupa. 

'sudah lewat empat, mungkin enam bulan, aku sudah tidak ingat lagi', ucap benakku.
Bilakah kita bertemu kembali?

"Merindu itu bagaikan venom yang merusak jiwamu cell by cell, dan venom itu akan semakin menggila saat tidak ada seorang pun yang bisa kau rindu" :(

(your) blessing

Tituss:
I'm taken aback by allegations
I misdirected my life
I've changed, I'm a different man
How I love ain't right
But I only wish, you'd understand
How I love is exactly, what God has planned
Just try to remember...

That I'm still your baby, your blood, have your eyes, have your smile,
I'm sorry this hurts you, I'm sorry this numbs you
But I'm not ashamed of this fire I've inflamed
I was given this gift to love from heaven's hands
Don't abandon me now for loving another man
All I ask is in time, you'll give me your blessing

Jenn:
I know deep down you love me, I could use that love right now
I know time heals the hurting, I just hope you come around
Cause I'm finally proud to state who I am
Your close-minded thoughts won't leave me condemned
And I'm sorry this hurts you...

But I'm still your baby, your blood, have your eyes, have your smile,
And othing has changed here, I'm still the same
You taught me to love with my heart, I still do
I was given this gift to love from heaven's hands
And I know this is not the life you have planned
But I ask that in time, you'll give me your blessing

Tituss:
Oooo...

Both:
Cause I couldn't remain living inside this lie,
Every day that I did more and more of me died
I'm just here to remind you
That I'm still your baby, your blood, have your eyes, have your smile,
I didn't mean to hurt you, I'm sorry you're wounded
But I'm not ashamed of this fire I've inflamed
I was living this life for somebody else,
Now this is my chance to live it for myself
All I ask is in time, you give me your blessing
Give your blessing
Your blessing

---
a song by Scott Alan.